undefined state of happiness

been so happy lately for no good reason at all :) but being happy is good .... regardless that there's no need to be happy really; now this is something I can be worried about I mean there are reasons why I should be happy, but it's not the actual reason why I feel happy at the moment and if I went deeper into it, and gave it a little thought I'll finally realize that I shouldn't at all be happy on the contrary I should be very concerned and upset and this brings me to anther thing, is happiness a choice? do people choose to be happy?? I might say that I do that, most of the time I choose to be happy like when something happens and it is supposed to be very sad and upsetting but it's being analyzed in a way to make it quite the opposite (of course it's me who do the analysis) so, I end up feeling happy and satisfied when I'm supposed to be angry and mad and raging with fury.... this is different of course from being inconsiderate or shallow.... but when you're the kind of person who can be easily wrapped up in your sadness and misery, you'll do everything you can to avoid being there... what is really annoying and can get right out of this mood of unexplained happiness, is taxi drivers.... God bless hem :S but, instead I started to try a different strategy now, and that is talking to the guy (an advice from a very wise man) I'm never afraid of talking to strangers as long as it's not at night, a rather quiet street or on a public transportation (I believe that it's a smart and easy way to be robbed, someone talking to you and having your full attention while another gets all they want from your handbag or whatever) but the taxi is not public, it's supposed to be a decent private means of transportation; but of course when you get on the taxi and smell the horrible odor of both the vehicle and the driver, you get stunned instantly (I do) and when he starts to go on his way, and you find it hard to even hear your phone ringing because of the noise coming out of every part of the car ...... and the driver; who's always playing something in whatever he uses to play songs (I tried to figure it out so many times but i never succeeded as i never saw 2 similar devices, it's not a cassette player or a radio, it's ....... whatever.....) so, you're stunned and then startled by the noise bursting out from all around you; and then you are numb for the rest of the way finally, you NEVER reach your destination because it's always a long, hard, and winding road :| i mean u NEVER get where you want no way you would.... are you expecting the taxi to take you just everywhere and anywhere?!!! can't you be grateful he got you just as close.... what's wrong with humans?!!!!!!!!!! are they always as greedy as that, can't they ever have enough?!!!!!!!!!!!! can't you use your feet and legs while you can!!!!!!!!!!!!! after the long and rather tiring journey, you're safe and sound ....and moreover disciplined... and you become more considering, appreciative and aware of your duties towards your fellow taxi drivers so, by recently talking with taxi drivers and having rather long conversations with them I can say that they are humans after all .... a very strange category of humans though ..... very amusing and imaginative, excellent narrators and the best thing about that (having that conversation), is getting safe and sound out of that taxi and paying a rather fair fare :D and most of the time being asked not to pay at all (but they take the money eventually of course) this is ideal for long distance rides as you'll amuse yourself for a while, and you won't have to pay all you got for that :) so, by getting over most of the taxi drivers, I can say that there's no reason at all to get me out of the undefined mood of happiness :D THANK GOD! a very Important note: I wrote this note on 11th of April, and now I can say that the good feeling's gone......I hate taxis, taxi drivers, any one who dares to tell me to get on a taxi or who takes a taxi themselves :S but, it never got me out of the undefined and dominant feeling of happiness :D curse you taxi driversssssssssssss :@